Going Through It

Hey there love bugs.

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I know it’s been a while since my last post and I don’t like to make excuses for not posting but life’s been pretty hectic lately. Getting through Christmas and the New Year in one piece was my ultimate goal. Blogging aside, I’ve been keeping myself busy looking for a job and spending quality time with my family. I want to take this post to fill you all in and update you on the latest.

From the start, my goal with stylbug.com was to be an open book and to share everything with my readers. Everything from my favorite beauty and fashion buys to even the most personal aspects of my life. So, cheers to getting more personal with you all.

j o b 

About a month ago, I started an awesome job in marketing and I thought it was going to be a great opportunity but it sort of went south. It turned out being something completely different than what I had anticipated and I was extremely unhappy. Marketing has always been an interest of mine and I was willing to give this company a shot, however, I found myself feeling stuck. Getting my masters degree in social work was based on the major fact that I knew I wanted to help people. This experience definitely put things into perspective and has made me realize that helping a population in need is what I am set out to do. In other words, the job search continues but I would be lying if I didn’t say this was a learning experience for myself and what I want out of my ideal career.

r e l a t i o n s h i p 

Let’s just say I’m no longer in one of these. About a month ago. . . the same time I stopped blogging, I broke up with my long term boyfriend. We were together for about a year and a half and to put it briefly, I just fell “out of love.” Don’t get me wrong, I still have a lot of love for this guy but I knew I wasn’t “in love” with him. We started drifting apart and our interests were just too different. In the beginning, it was amazing and I was in love but towards the end of our relationship I knew he wasn’t for me. He’s an amazing guy and I wish him well but I’m so incredibly happy to be single. For the first time in a long time I feel free, free to focus on myself and work on me. I’m not necessarily looking for another relationship right now but I’m just letting whatever happens, happens. I am waiting for the universe to send it’s magic – whatever or with whomever that may be.

m e

This is definitely a touchy subject but probably the most important update I wanted to address. To be completely frank, I’ve been suffering from major depression and an eating disorder during the past year or so. I want to be as open and honest with you as I can because this is such an important topic and one that is near and dear to my heart. If I can help one person get through whatever it is they may be facing or struggling with, that would mean the world to me. These are personal struggles that deserve their own post but just know that if you are going through these issues please know you are not alone and don’t forget to reach out to seek help. Dealing with life and having these issues hasn’t been easy – it’s probably been the roughest year and a half of my life. Aside from all of this, I’m taking steps forward and seeking help. I now go to therapy on a weekly basis and I have the love and support of close family and friends.

t o d a y

Today, I am breaking free. Breaking free from my illness, eating more, enjoying the little things and living my life to it’s fullest. I am staying focused on me and putting my physical and mental health first. In other news, I’m back! Back and free from life’s challenges because it’s too short to not live anything but your best life. I love you all. Thanks for listening.

Sending love & happiness to my love bugs.

 xoxo stylbug  stylbug-logo

Comments

  1. My Dearest Rebecca – I will just say this – your honesty astounds me. I have been praying so hard for you without really knowing what you were going through. Looking at your pics just confirmed what, in my heart, I already knew. I am so proud of you for facing your issues and working on them. Be happy my little darling. I have always loved you so very much.

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    • Dear Diane,
      Thank you so much for your kind words! You are an amazing woman and I’ve always admired your kindness and your giving heart. I love you so much! Thank you for your prayers. It’s definitely been a tough journey but I know that everything is meant to be and I have faith in God that everything will be okay. Much love always! XOXO

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  2. Your post really touched me. I think you are very brave for being so open and honest. It takes incredible strength to be vulnerable and seek help. You are inspiring 💗

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    • Dear Mindy,

      Thank you so much for your kind words. My goal in sharing and being so open and honest with everything that’s been going on is to hopefully reach others going through similar situations. Just knowing you’re not alone in your personal struggles can make a huge difference. Let’s get together soon btw! Sending love your way! XOXO

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